I Did It

i got enough courage to...
do this.
tomorrow.
i can't wait, like seriously.
i am flipping over the top excited
happy crazy amazing everything!
i love her so much.
and hopefully tomorrow i'll have a girlfriend. :]
<3

I Want To

If i had wanted to i would have

what a bunch of bullshit that is

i do want to i'm just not brave enough

to change the way things are

i'm a coward and you know it

but i guess i'll just burn

with the other things you light up and smoke

Sleepless Nights

i can't sleep because my legs are so jittery
and my back is killing me
and i wrote 7 new poems today
all about how abby and sam aren't my friends anymore.
according to abby
i'm an attention seeking oblivious bitch who needs to get her act together because my attitude is making her fucking sick.
i thought i knew her and i thought she wasn't like this.
i guess i was wrong.
i hate not being there for anyone.